In pursuit..

there's this guy i really like and i started a plot on how i'd get his name. i was in the hallway one time, taking something from my locker. I stood up and was about to walk towards the office pantry, when suddenly, this guy who came from the pantry was looking at me. he was looking at me, directly at my eyes. So i looked back. we were walking towards each other, staring at each other's eyes until we got pass each other, without saying anything. possibly our eyes might have talked, i really would never know.

there's something in him that i find really interesting. it's not the way he carries his clothes or the way he talks. he only wears a shirt, a pair of jeans and a pair of pink chucks. i've never heard him talk, i always see him in the pantry watching tv and eating his lunch. that's about it. but we always "bump" into each other and always ended looking at each other's eyes.

he doesn't look like some mysterious guy to me. i guess, i find him interesting because he's always by himself. i don't see him at our smoking area, so i guess he doesn't smoke. i find him very simple, yet there is something i want to know. i'm just not sure what that is, but i really want to know who he is. i like him.

so going back to that day where i almost melted because he never took his eyes off of mine in that hallway. i told myself, i need to do something. i need to get his name. i need to know who he really is, because, in all honesty, it's driving me crazy. rofl. i told myself if i see him today, i'll suck all my courage up and ask for his name. i'll start with his name and then i'll go from there. haha!

one day i went to work, full hearted to ask for that very important piece of information. i waited in the pantry, trying to see if he'll come in. the plan needs to be delivered. that's what i was feeling then. in my head, i was formulating a plan on how i'd get his name. i was planning on catching him in the pantry, sitting alone and eating his lunch. and i'm going to approach him and ask if somebody sits next to him and take that seat and try to start a chat or something. but everytime i go to the pantry, i can feel that my heart is going to pop out of my chest or something. like it's going to burst and kill me. rofl.

two days passed and no name was asked because i wasn't able to see him in the pantry. i just told myself that maybe it wasn't meant to happen. i let go of the thought of getting to know him or at least having his name.

then came a time, i was in the pantry and saw him sitting next to a coworker, eating lunch. i know this is the only time i can do this. so i waited a bit. looking for the right moment to get what i wanted. i saw him stood up and grabbed some water, so i went to my locker and saw that the hallway's deserted. i can feel that that was the time for it.

he came out of the pantry and started walking towards where i am. after passing me, i said, "excuse me, may i ask for your name?" and he did give it to me, no questions asked. i later on realized that after that short conversation, i was smiling, smiling like guy smiley of sesame street. rofl.

that made me really happy. i was so happy that i don't want to see him again. i don't think i have the guts to see him face to face after that. but i'll be happy if i'd get to at least hang out with him and know him better.

so far, i'm just with a name and a guy. nothing more, nothing else. i hope this pushes through.